I have been off of work all week due to them giving back our holiday's we lost during the winter months.
We have went to Holiday World and played all day, then to the fireworks that evening. We have went school clothes shopping. And I hate to shop so you know that was a joy. :) Sarah never wants to pick anything out but when I pick something up she is like "Mom really?" guess that means I have an older taste of clothing than the teenagers do. LOL
Today I plan on cleaning the house and seeing what I can finally get finished. I get started and something comes to mind and it's all over with the cleaning. My emotions are every where at this point and I really hate not being able to control them better. Guess it is all part of the process This month Chris and I would have been married 13 years and it is always on my mind. Other's have told me that the first year of first will be the hardest but right now the way I feel the first start of every day is the hardest. I force myself to go to bed, I force myself to wake up, I force myself to do just about everything during each and every day. I do try to focus on what needs to be done through out the day and then when that is over I am right back to the forcing myself to do things. I have never been one to put things off but by the looks of things I have done that for some time around the house.
I keep wishing that the ones that live here would take a little action other than talk and help out by mowing the yard, doing the dishes just simple things but shoot if you are grown and have to be told each and every thing to do then there is probably a problem. LOL So when they move out on their own I can just imagine what their place will look like.
Just hope they keep it is little cleaner than what they here because I will not be going to clean up after them. :)
Well I better get started I am going to try to finish sanding the drywall mud on the closet that was put up in Sarah's room and then I want to get that thing finished.
Have a Wonderful Day!
