Tomorrow we would have been celebrating our 13th Anniversary.
I love and Miss you Chris Forever and Always!
That being said I will share some of our live with you.
We did not have a photographer, nor a fancy dress or tux we had 7 children.
I was cleaning the apartment and Chris came home and ask if I was ready.
I ask him where we were going and his reply was
" To get married"
I threw my shoes on and went in jeans and a button down shirt and off to the judge we went.
Our witnessed were his children they giggled the whole time because I could not stop kissing on him as the Judge was speaking. :)
We promise each other that we would have a wedding and it would be with pictures, cake, a dress the whole nine yards. But life took over with 7 kids and a year later the 8th no time nor money for a wedding. However we loved like there was no tomorrow and I Thank GOD for that.
We as any married couple had our bad days and MOST of our bad days were because of something the ex's were driving us nuts about and disagreeing with what our children were doing or saying.
But never 1 night passed that we went to bed angry nor without telling each other we loved one another.
So no I didn't have the fancy wedding but I had something I never dreamed could ever happen and that was True love!
We came home from getting married and went right back to cleaning and working.
Now if that isn't romantic I do not know what is. :)
It did not really matter to me I was in love and knew he loved me and that was the important part.
So tomorrow I know my husband would NOT have wanted me to cry but I am sure I will because I miss you so much. But I will push myself to find a new happiness, new memories but hang on to the good memories of him always. I know he is with God now and is so much better than he was. I have to keep reminding myself that He is in Heaven with our babies we lost while I am here to take care of Sarah and do my best at raising her.
There is a reason for everything I just do not know the reason for this but they keep telling me time heals and I keep asking God to help me heal. I smile and laugh and try to keep busy but it's the quiet time that is the hardest. Maybe that is why I am still awake at 2 and 3 in the morning. But I know my body and in time it will rest I am sure.
I hope you all have a wonderful day and if you think of me just say a quick prayer that time does heal.
R.I. P. Christopher
I will always LOVE YOU!
