Life has a way of dealing some pretty bad cards but it all depends on what you do with the cards when your dealt them as to how you survive.
Our family has suffered a great lose this year and we will always wear a scar from that.
You never know when it will hit you.
You can be driving down the road talking to your daughter and it will hit you and the tears just flow and you can not stop them.
You can be home cleaning and have nothing whatsoever going through your mind and the tears will come and you will fold.
You will feel like you are going to lose your mind from time to time and yet by the grace of God you can wake up the next day and find that you haven't.
I have personally never felt so lost in all my life.
I miss my husband and hurt inside for him daily but we have to pick up the broken parts of our hearts and try to find a new happy.
Sarah and I have tried to keep busy and I thought that would help us if we filled our days with activities.
No that does not stop the tears from falling either.
So with grief you will find that no matter how you try to block the sadness, the tears, the anger, the hate ,all the emotions that go along with it you can NOT.
I have had some really crude people come in my life as he has passed and they have said some terrible things and most of them MEN trying to get me to go out with them thinking mean and nasty things will work.
It doesn't I have family & friends and them and God are all I need in my life at this time.
It is sad to think that some MEN think that if they pressure you and make rude comments they can cause you to fall in love with them and live happily ever after.
The only Happily ever after there is in life is to be ready to see Jesus and that is the soul purpose of life. I am not perfect and I will be the first to admit that.
But God is still working on me!.
I use to believe in Happily Ever after with Chris and then reality has hit me.
The only WAY I will see Chris again is to be ready to see him in heaven.
But here on earth there is NO Happily Ever After other than in a story book and I do not live there.
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Have a Great Day!
